I've suffered from back pain ever since I had a bicycle accident 12 years ago. At the time it really wasn't that bad, but in the following months I noticed that I wasn't walking correctly. I saw doctors and they just kept suggesting that I rest and take painkillers. Eventually I gave up and decided to live with it.
Then 6 years ago I moved to Taiwan. My back continued to get worse and I began to develop pain in the upper back and neck too. I saw a Chinese doctor who said it was bad. I got treatment but it didn't help and I was having all sorts of communication difficulties.
Finally I gave up and found a US doctor of chiropractics. Seeing him was helping but I still felt as though things were getting worse. Numbness spreading in my feet. Weakness in the legs. Then a few months ago I had a bad motorcycle accident. Again immediately afterwards I felt OK with my back then a month down the line everything just started to go wrong. My leg length was off by an inch, my neck muscles began to spasm uncontrollably, I had nausea and dizziness. I got to see a neurologist who sent me for a head CT scan which came back with nothing.
He then said that my x-rays weren't that bad and I was not to worry about. I've found the whole thing so frustrating. I'm a teacher and so being on my feet is essential to the job, but there are days when I feel like I can't cope with the pain. I've almost broken down in class on several occasions. I think it's the feeling that there's nothing I can do that is killing me.
I got to see another doctor today and he seems to think the problem lies with my immune system. I'm very skeptical of this but had a blood test anyway.
My biggest worry though is the future. I'm 30, in pain and struggling to make it through a days work. Where will I be in 10 years? 20 years? My girlfriend and I are hoping to get married this year and it terrifies me. Marriage means kids and I can barely look after myself. I feel like I'm just going to be a burden to her.
Part of me thinks I should return to the UK, but I've no idea what I would do for a living or how my gf and our dog would fit in with that.